downers

its friday today. weather was so beautiful all day.
but my sorry ass did not get to enjoy as much.
u kno one of the days at work when...

you feel so small....
almost feeling like an amateur.

it is disappointing because i give up a lot of my personal time for work and i often make it as priority. so i'd like to be somewhat best of it. sad face.

today i actually wondered if i put this much of effort in a relationship, i would prolly be married! if not, at least engaged... lol

i dont put effort in a relationship at first. i take time and let the guy's action speak. some might think of me as a spoiled whatever but they dont know that i will be double loyal if they are down for me. so guys please get thru that. there's this gorgeous sincere most loyal down ass chick you can ever have waiting for you...! haha

ill be honest here since its my blog. i also wondered about marrying to a rich man. lol golddigging yup. but the problem is i have too much pride for that shit. period. end of conversation.

now what. whats da solution for jee? juss working my ass off. try to be best of it at what i do. that way i dont bring myself down. not all the time but most of the time.